there has been a great deal of hush-hush talk on sexuality. what offends me is that my friends, my peers and people who are even 10 or 20 years older to me do not understand what sexuality stands for. girls freak out when i tell them that i like lying on my stomach and rubbing the back of my shoulder. they baffle when i tell them that i appreciate a woman's body and the way that she has been made. they take huge offences when i tell them that i support alternate sexualities- ones that don't exist in the mainstream dogmatic world.
no wonders i am being considered a homosexual myself. but that does not matter. its not what you think about me that will make a difference. it is what you think about yourself that will. Men are generally known to be fond of their apparatus and learn to fondle, touch n jerk off at an early age. the same is not the case with girls. some are not even aware of how their genitalia looks like, what all parts is it composed of and most importantly, is it just for being used by a man or it really has the capacity to pleasure them?
it is a confusing state. gender and sexuality. there will be numerous posts after this which would narrate my views on sex and sexuality. for now, i would like to focus on general issues. the first being the difference in the views of men and women on sex and sexuality. it would really be a very interesting scene when an all girl peer group comes to know about the sexuality of one of them-maybe she is a lesbian. what would the girls do now? maybe the alternate sexuality bearer would be teased. that is how girls react in normal situations. girls mostly pose a mental, emotional or psychological threat on the victim. so she is teased, tormented and mocked. if the male counterparts come to know of her sexuality, they may view her as an object- a satisfying new experience.
on the other hand, a group of guys come to know of the sexuality of one of their peers. i have heard numerous accounts of innocent young guys with alternate sexuality being raped by their own friends. they were not only used as a means to the satisfaction of sexual urges but also as a source of entertainment. here, the physical torment is more but the emotional torture is similar.
what really surprises me is that whoever talks about sexuality or actually belongs to the queer group is taken as a sexually pervert person. discovering your sexuality means that one's mind is perverted, all you think of is sex and that too unnatural sex. they are thought of as people who have completely detested themselves from all other human functions but sex. so is it really true? is queer sexuality really a westernized concept or has it existed in our society ever since. will talk about all this later.
no wonders i am being considered a homosexual myself. but that does not matter. its not what you think about me that will make a difference. it is what you think about yourself that will. Men are generally known to be fond of their apparatus and learn to fondle, touch n jerk off at an early age. the same is not the case with girls. some are not even aware of how their genitalia looks like, what all parts is it composed of and most importantly, is it just for being used by a man or it really has the capacity to pleasure them?
it is a confusing state. gender and sexuality. there will be numerous posts after this which would narrate my views on sex and sexuality. for now, i would like to focus on general issues. the first being the difference in the views of men and women on sex and sexuality. it would really be a very interesting scene when an all girl peer group comes to know about the sexuality of one of them-maybe she is a lesbian. what would the girls do now? maybe the alternate sexuality bearer would be teased. that is how girls react in normal situations. girls mostly pose a mental, emotional or psychological threat on the victim. so she is teased, tormented and mocked. if the male counterparts come to know of her sexuality, they may view her as an object- a satisfying new experience.
on the other hand, a group of guys come to know of the sexuality of one of their peers. i have heard numerous accounts of innocent young guys with alternate sexuality being raped by their own friends. they were not only used as a means to the satisfaction of sexual urges but also as a source of entertainment. here, the physical torment is more but the emotional torture is similar.
what really surprises me is that whoever talks about sexuality or actually belongs to the queer group is taken as a sexually pervert person. discovering your sexuality means that one's mind is perverted, all you think of is sex and that too unnatural sex. they are thought of as people who have completely detested themselves from all other human functions but sex. so is it really true? is queer sexuality really a westernized concept or has it existed in our society ever since. will talk about all this later.
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